I’d like to believe I’m a good person. I’d like to believe I lead a well-rounded and fulfilling life. I’d like to believe that I’m living up to my full potential. But you know what? I’m probably not.
Sure I go to school full time. Sure I work part time. Sure I’ve started to pack my schedule. Sure I’m reaching out and forging opportunities to push me forward, but is it really enough?
I feel like no matter what I do, something is missing. I go to school a lot and do well, but barely work; not enough. I work more but start falling behind in school; not enough. I go to school and work a lot but have no free time; not enough. I work, go to school, and have time to do what I like; still not enough.
The last statement is the best. The last really shows me the value of others versus material things alone; the value of love, friendship, companionship. What’s a life of work without relationships? What about school? What about free time? How fulfilling is life when we go through it alone? Or only partially engaged? It doesn’t seem too worthwhile to me. I know I’m only 18 and I’ve only experienced so much, but I’ve experienced enough to realize that a life completely full of successes isn’t so full unless you have others to share in the riches with.
Now I’m not saying you need someone else to make you happy, not even a tiny bit. I am saying that you need love. Love is more important than you could ever imagine. Love is more than that A on your paper, love is more than that paycheck. Love is more than sitting down to watch tv or laying down for a nap.
Love is important. Relationships are vital. If on your quest for success you push everyone away, you’ve already lost the battle. Sure it may be hard to maintain connections and spend time with everyone you care about when things get busy, but at least give an effort. Don’t skimp out or say “maybe tomorrow”. Don’t rely on tomorrow because no one really knows if tomorrow is really going to come. Make time today. Don’t let the ones that you love go to bed without knowing you feel the same. Don’t let time slip by without at least taking a moment to drop by just to say hi. The importance of these little actions is more than you could even imagine.
Like I said, I can only speak from so many years, but I’ve been here. I’ve been on both ends-I’ve let my life get in the way of my relationships and I’ve been pushed aside, a victim of busy lives and oh so important commitments. It’s not easy from either angle. On one hand, you think everything is going great and you just keep running, running from your friends, running from your family. Then you hit a bump in the road. You stumble, and when you fall, there’s no one there. No. They’re back where you left them. On the other hand, you reach out. You call and text and try and try until you feel as though they don’t feel the same. It feels awful. Both instances feel awful.
I cannot stress how bad I feel about the people I haven’t made time for, especially in this past year. It’s way too easy to get caught up in the hustle bustle of life and forget what’s truly important. Now I’m not saying go out and drop all your dreams and endeavors or go hangout with someone every single day, but MAKE TIME.
Time is precious. Love is precious. Give love the time it deserves.
I am guilty of prioritizing wrong, I’ll be the first to admit this fact. I know I’m already preparing myself for this even more as I grow older, but I refuse to let my life be so overran by successes and becoming better for my own advantages that I forgot to sit down and let my loved ones know that I care. I care. I love you. I need you. Even though we don’t see each other often or talk every single day, I love you and I think about you and your presence in my life is important to me.
I don’t want to grow up and look back at all the opportunities I missed to say “I love you” or go out for a little dinner date, knowing it’s too late to do so. I can’t imagine making all my dreams come true then realizing I’m completely and utterly alone. I don’t know how everyone else feels about this, from the one forgetting to the forgotten, but I know from both ends of the spectrum, it has got me thinking.
Remember your old best friend? Your grandma? Your classmate from a few semesters ago? Anyone who has cared about you and supported you and help you become who you are today…give them a call, take a drive to their house. TELL THEM YOU LOVE THEM.
Time slips away way too fast. Don’t waste it on material advancements without acknowledging the most important thing: love. Those you love. Those who love you. This is important.
I know I’ve pulled away from most of the people that care about me and love me, and for that I am sincerely sorry.